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| Tuesday, March 11th, 2008 | | 3:37 am |
ahhhh sick of school. FUCKING SICK OF SCHOOL. i just wanna do something useful! i guess learning helps you to be more useful later, but why don't we all just take half our courseload for 8 years while we work halftime? that seems like it would actually lead you to be helpful to others. but researching shit that's never gonna get read or processed by anyone but myself is just fucking depressing. | | Monday, January 28th, 2008 | | 12:58 am |
This is about the busiest that I have ever been in my entire fucking life. Stress, juggling everything, AHHHH! I need like 38 hours in the day to get it all done. | | Friday, December 14th, 2007 | | 3:29 pm |
concerts! thrill jockey 15th bday!
tonight i see: arbouretum, archer prewitt, bobby conn, brokeback, fiery furnaces, fred anderson, school of language, sea & cake, thalia zedek, & special surprise guests tomorrow i see: adult, califone, eleventh dream day, frequency, pit er pat, trans am, the zincs, + special surprise guests (lemme guess--tortoise) yeah! school's been cool, going home soon is crazyyy! i hope my car will be working. see you home folks soon! | | Tuesday, December 11th, 2007 | | 5:40 am |
i am done, now just a matter of walking over and handing in my paper. excellenteeee | | 12:28 am |
well. 1 page of a paper left, then editing said paper, and that's IT. JESUS. now to reread the young man's argument in Kierkegaard's "Stages of Life" about love having no rational basis--that young man's kind of a funny guy. | | Monday, December 10th, 2007 | | 2:17 am |
makin so much headway in studying and it feels good. really good to finally get the really big picture, forget all these details that i've had to focus on to learn for this class, and just kinda zoom out a bit and see that they really have been forming a big giant system. and that's like yeah. alright, alright. and it makes me feel really good about myself academically this quarter, which i haven't felt until now. but good timing. yeah! diggin the optimism! tryin to focus on that, it does help! | | Sunday, December 9th, 2007 | | 2:31 am |
los finales
it's all endurance, mista northwestern. and the trick is looking for the absolute most positive that makes you study. tomorrow i might wake up before noon. incredible! looking forward to next week, after monday/tuesday. concerts, finding time to spend with friends and go into chicago--what a wonderful world. i mean, if there's ice/snow, it better be a wonderful world. OR ELSE but really, it's pretty outside. i'll take that. | | Tuesday, December 4th, 2007 | | 1:27 am |
i am sick, so my mind feels like mush, so i'm having trouble studying, but i've started and i don't think i have too terribly much work to do. 9 pager & 8 pager by monday, it'll be aight. made some bombass banana bread yesterday really needing to hear more large group (like 10+ members) music. and music with less saxophone, & more guitar or brass. i think i've just burnt out for a while on solos, duos, trios, & quartets led by sax. playing/recording some music with some guys (an electronics guy & a guitarist) this wednesday. busy busy busyyy blurrrrrg. but hey! done with the quarter soon! | | Tuesday, November 27th, 2007 | | 4:19 am |
ahhhhh busy times!
now: 4:20am, and i just finished my reading for tomorrow. i now have to write two reaction coming up: 9:45am, wake up for my 11am class. 2pm, when i get out of class - get soap so i can bathe myself. pick out music for my wednesday jazz show, and eat lunch/dinner. then nap to prepare for reading a bunch of pages and writing a philosophy paper from scratch, ahhhhh. next day, 6:15 am - wake up (or just already be awake and start getting ready) for my jazz show. FUCK. nothing like expecting 4 hours of sleep tonight and none tomorrow. | | Saturday, November 24th, 2007 | | 1:43 pm |
| | Monday, November 19th, 2007 | | 11:43 pm |
so i will FIGHT THE TREND and post to my livejournal, because blogging is a good way to keep up with people, even if in a short impersonal manner. doesn't have to replace phone calls, can just be an addendum. i'm all into the AND not OR now. school has been fucking EXHAUSTING this quarter, and i do mean emotionally. it quickly became studying shit i really don't care about. another theme of this quarter: wanting to do a lot more practice, and at least have that alongside the theory for inspiration. because this 100% theory/academics business is not cutting it. this quarter has also been pretty lonely. i feel like a lot of people have been really into their own stuff, and my best friends and fam are away. meeting new people and people moving from acquaintances to friends is nice, but for me the really close friends count most, quality over quantity. on more positive notes, i've been diggin on the music a lot more lately. i'm practicing drums a lot more, learning to sound engineer (and some musicians i love will be coming in soon--exciting!), guest DJing sets, listening to a lot of music on my own, and going to more shows. awesome awesome. also, cooking for myself has been nice. i'm working to keep my room manageable/sanitary. but yeah, truckin truckin. that's all for now. | | Thursday, November 15th, 2007 | | 12:21 am |
different ways of engaging cultural norms:
-conforming: following them -reaction: doing the opposite -transcending: avoiding conforming or reaction, as both are defined by the culture. working outside the culture, and then engaging the culture, and redefining. i am busy! neat! | | Monday, November 12th, 2007 | | 1:47 am |
hey! we've all studied hard for midterms, but let's live a little! less slaving for school, more fun! | | Thursday, November 8th, 2007 | | 9:15 pm |
| | Thursday, November 1st, 2007 | | 3:38 pm |
i am superbusy, thus the lack of response. but i do have time to post a disturbing article on | | Thursday, October 18th, 2007 | | 12:48 am |
peter asked what my beef with material capitalism is. i am providing below.
hello, hello. check out welp, isn't that a delight. here's the order of the materialist pharmaceutical thought process on shyness: "i want to make money. therefore i will redefine shyness in scientific manuals, and thus at the source make the supposed experts my agents. this drug may have adverse side effects, but i will not let the patient or public know. if after discontinuing my drug they need it more, oh well." if i were a psychiatrist/psychologist, my thought process on shyness: "for most people, shyness is not crippling. however, many would like to work on their shyness, and come to me for that. therefore i will give them the tools in their personal lives to make these changes (such as advising that they focus on the person they're talking to rather than how they appear to this person, which has proven to reduce feelings of shyness and awkwardness). this way they will also gain self-confidence from knowing that themselves have changed themselves how they wanted." i think materialism through capitalism is not just an economic system, but a mindset of the west, that has caused much harm to people around the world, or at least mutually reinforced these problems. for example, american slavery may not have happened if not for pre-existing prejudice against africans, but the desire to accumulate more money and possessions certainly led to much rationalization of slavery and the further classification of africans as sub-humans, for the economic benefit of westerners. i am a bit in the vein of marx in thinking that many social problems seemingly unrelated to capitalism are exacerbated by the attempts of those in power seeking more money. again, i think this is a psychologistic and cultural problem, to amass desires and attempt to directly satisfy them over the needs of others, with the injustices against others rationalized (i.e. explained away) as not important because the system is supposedly fair and equal, and therefore anything done within the law is moral. i doubt the laws would ever fully catch every single wrong that someone who is a materialist could commit, because the manifestations of imagination employed in seeking wrongdoing can be so varied--simply making a law saying "don't do wrong in this way" helps, but does not cut it. i think maybe if we destroyed spiritual materialist, capitalist hording, and showed how it will never satisfy (as psychologists have found wealth and happiness have no correlation), then maybe an economic capitalism could exist without harming others. or, at this point we wouldn't want economic capitalism and would have thought of a better way to do things. this is complex, there are a lot of related problems i haven't addressed, and i know i haven't fully figured it out. this is why you should tell me what you think. | | Sunday, October 14th, 2007 | | 8:39 am |
-parents and then emily are visiting in the next 2 weeks -found a bunch of folks to jam with. i'm excited! -gonna have a 21st bday party soon. i'm 21 in 15 days. -excitement! findin some excitement, lookin for more excitement! | | Thursday, October 11th, 2007 | | 4:05 pm |
cold times at evanston high
-it's cold here. i like it. someday i'll go to iceland. -i already forgot the northwestern email password that i made YESTERDAY. noooooooooo! -i like classes, especially schopenhauer & kirkegaard, and psych anthro. the others are cool too. -i once was sick, but now i'm less sick. but still snotty as fuck. -some ideas i have to think on before i officially declare them, lj style. | | Saturday, July 28th, 2007 | | 3:26 pm |
i just shipped my drum set and some stuff 1200 miles from Austin to Chicago. WTF WTF WTF. today and tomorrow in austin, and i leave monday morning! busy busy busy. | | Friday, July 27th, 2007 | | 1:44 pm |
i leave austin for 6 months in 3 days. holy SHIT. panic panic, especially about moving my drum set, how the fuck will that happen? drumming's been so fun lately, at northwestern i'll try to jam several times a week, good good. jesus i'm busy for the next 4 days. acckkkk. |
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